TFAL: Rematch

Written July 31st 11:36 PM

When the rotting, waterlogged corpse emerged from the captain’s quarters dragging Alice with it, Ailith knew. She had been waiting for this moment for months, looking over her shoulder and around every corner, the chance of Elijah finding her again always in the back of her mind, and here he was. He was wearing somebody else’s body, but there was no denying the hatred in his eyes.

“Well, well, well. We meet again, Ailith.” Elijah’s drawl was raspy, like rocks rubbing together in his throat. It sent shivers down Ailith’s spine.

“I wish I could say it was a pleasure,” Ailith ground out. Fuck, fuck, fuck! She needed an escape route, she needed to draw him away from the rest of the group. Alice was already being dragged away by a group of undead sailors, her eyes meeting Ailith’s for a split second. The panic Ailith saw in them cut through her. They needed to protect Alice, they couldn’t let another ally take the fall for them.

There was a split second of silence before they all burst into action at once, the First and Last moving as one well oiled machine. Ailith raced towards Elijah, yelling “Do what you have to do! He’s mine!” over her shoulder at her friends as she did so. She got in a couple good hits before he was able to retaliate, and retaliate he did. Whatever pact Elijah had made to come back from the dead had given him supernatural strength, his strikes driving the breath from Ailith’s lungs. She could feel bones cracking under the onslaught, her lip splitting as Elijah’s fist made contact, snapping her head to the side. Ow. Ailith shook out her arms, activating her tattoos as she ran through different scenarios.

She knew what needed to happen. She had tried to prevent this last time, but her friends were too damn stubborn to let her die. Ailith knew she could outrun them and that Elijah would follow. If she got far enough away, there would be no one who could reach her to heal her. She could reach out to her ki and do it herself, but she needed Elijah to kill her. It was the only solution she could think of, the only way to keep them safe. Feyra was going to be furious. Ace would be inconsolable, Xiv would say she was being stupid. Talus might have her back, but she doubted he’d approve of her decision.

Enough of this, Ailith thought. She ducked another punch and ran away from the group, seeing that Ace had already started towards Alice. Good girl. She scampered up a rope connecting to an adjacent ship, shimmying her way around the crows nest and ducking out of line of sight of the zombified archer cherry picking them from the vantage point. As expected, Elijah followed suit. Ailith knew he would have no trouble following her, but she didn’t expect the well aimed arrow that sliced the rope Ailith had just been standing on, sending Elijah down to the deck of the ship below her. Ailith took a second to glance up and see Feyra standing at the edge of the ship she had just left, bow raised and ready to loose another arrow at the archer right above Ailith. There was a faint whistle as Feyra let the arrow fly followed by a dull thud as it found it’s mark in the rotting flesh of the zombie. Ailith could see Xiv and Talus each battling their own groups of zombies, Talus’s sword a blur as it sliced into soft flesh, Xiv tossing vial after vial into the fray. They seemed to be holding their own, which spurred Ailith into movement once more.

She ran down another rope, leaping onto the deck of another ship, rolling to absorb the impact. There was a lone zombie on this ship, but he was manning an entire wall of cannons, each of which was trained on The Disaster’s Mistress. They needed Jack and his ship to transport Xiv’s mithral and get them back to Halophell. It was about to be two on one. Ailith ran towards the corpse, swinging her cane and letting the thorns cover the rest of the distance. She heard Feyra shout something in the distance that was carried away by the wind, but she soon felt a presence behind her. Whipping around, Ailith saw Feyra stepping onto the ship, following her as best she could. Feyra was stubborn, Ailith knew this. There was no way she was going to be able to convince the other woman to turn back, to leave Elijah to Ailith alone. She just hoped that either she or Elijah finished the job before Feyra got hurt in the process.

Elijah and the zombie converged on Ailith, trapping her between them. She managed to deflect some of their attacks, redirecting them towards each other, but it was no use. They were stronger and she was outnumbered. Ailith’s body was bruised and bloody; she could feel cracked ribs protesting with each heaving breath she took. Her knuckles were purple, her right cheekbone throbbing from where Elijah had broken it on his fist. She couldn’t last much longer. She gritted her teeth and looked towards Feyra, desperation written plainly on the redhead’s face.

“I’m sorry,” Ailith whispered, body swaying as black spots filled her vision. Elijah chuckled low and mean, grabbing her face and turning it back towards him.

“I want to watch the light leave your eyes,” he rasped, hand gripping her jaw tightly. Ailith didn’t fight it, she didn’t have the strength left. Elijah drew back a fist, grinning madly. “I’m going to enjoy this,” he sighed. He drove his fist into Ailith’s chest with astonishing speed, cracking her sternum down the centre. The noise that left her body was inhuman as she tried to breathe around the broken bone, Elijah’s grasp on her face the only thing keeping her upright. No air was entering Ailith’s body; alarm bells were ringing in her head, her body was screaming with the lack of oxygen. Her vision started to fade. The last thing she saw was Feyra loosing an arrow at the back of Elijah’s head before she was pulled into unconsciousness.

Ailith didn’t hear Feyra cry out as her body hit the deck of the ship. She didn’t feel Elijah punching down wildly into her prone body until finally there was a resounding crack! as her neck broke and her heart stopped beating. Ailith was spared the sight of Feyra falling unconscious mere feet from her, her arm outstretched towards Ailith’s body, reaching for her futilely.


Death was quiet. Peaceful. A welcome respite from the constant running and fighting Ailith had been doing her entire life. She could stay here, in this dark place. She could be content with this. But there was something missing. Someone who should be here, but she couldn’t find them. This wasn’t right. She needed to go back, there was something – someone? – calling for her, she could hear them now, getting louder and louder. Ailith turned towards the noise and started to run, through the darkness until a swirl of light, not unlike the one atop her cane, came into view. She didn’t hesitate – she ran for it, through it, blinking as it grew brighter, blinding her as the noise in her head reached a crescendo —


Ailith gasped back to life, senses coming back to her all at once. Elijah stood above her, a bloody grin twisting his face. She watched as it began to morph into confusion at the sight of her stirring beneath him, but she burst into a flurry of motion he had time to react. Propelling herself off her back and into a crouch, she coiled her muscles and used the momentum to push her cane straight up into the soft underside of Elijah’s jaw. This close to him, she noticed that the edges of his borrowed body were flaking away, getting dragged away by the wind. Elijah howled in rage, spittle flying into Ailith’s face.

Ailith answered Elijah with a snarl of her own, teeth bared against the throbbing pain in every inch of her body. “I’ll see you later,” Elijah gasped out, the speech garbled around the hole in his jaw, before fading away into nothingness.

“I look forward to it,” Ailith growled to the air, limbs shaking with the effort of staying upright. Looking around, Ailith saw that Talus had made his way over to her and Feyra, and had succeeded in re-killing the zombie, leaving the area clear for now. Xiv stood on the deck of the main ship, a good 60 feet above them. Ace was nowhere to be seen still, but the fact that Talus was with them and not Ace had Ailith not worried about the young girl. Elijah had been dealt with, but they still needed to stop the dragon turtle from catching up to Jack’s ship.

Sparing a quick glance at Feyra to make sure the other woman was unharmed, Ailith leapt off the side of the ship, stumbling slightly as she landed on the dragon turtle’s shell. She brought her cane down over and over in the same spot, alternating with her fists, wincing at the pain. Talus and Feyra joined her, each firing into the same spot as it cracked open, exposing soft flesh underneath. Feyra nocked a nasty looking arrow with a dragon’s head carved into it and loosed it at the cracked section of shell, the dragon turtle thrashing in response.

A burst of steam exploded up through the crack, the heat of it knocking Ailith out briefly. She woke seconds later to Feyra’s hands on her, her healing magic coursing through Ailith’s body. We need to finish this. Up close Ailith could see that Feyra was battered, blood streaking down her arm from an arrow wound. Groaning in pain, Ailith rose to her feet once more, raising her cane over her head and bringing it down as hard as she could, plunging it into the crack in the dragon turtle’s shell.

No. What have you done?” The dragon turtle bellowed in pain, and abruptly stopped swimming. The stillness was eerie after the constant motion. Water began to lap at their ankles and Ailith realized with a jolt that the dragon turtle was sinking. They needed to get off this creature before they got trapped underwater with it. Xiv’s water breathing potions were only going to last so long. Ailith just wanted to close her eyes and rest, but she knew they needed to find Xiv’s mithral. She ran up the side of the closest ship, pushing herself as fast as she could possibly go. She trusted the others to find their own ways up; she was the fastest, she could find Xiv’s mithral for them. Her search turned up nothing on the main ship. The promised mithral was nowhere to be found.

“There’s nothing here! It’s empty!” She called to the group as she made her way out of the ship’s hold. The rest of the party, Alice included, all looked back at her grim faced as she emerged, exhaustion plain as day on their faces. A sinking feeling grew in the pit of Ailith’s stomach. Xiv’s question from a few days prior rang in her ears. Is someone on this ship going to betray us? The answer had been a cryptic “maybe,” which at the time Ailith had joked meant someone was already betraying them. Ailith felt a familiar rage building up inside of her as Ace calmly took out her piece of copper wire and murmured a few words.

“Captain Rathbone, there is no mithral on this ship. Do you know where it might be?” There was a beat of silence before Ace relayed Jack’s reply. “I have your mithral. Come back to the ship.”

Feyra’s hand on Ailith’s arm was the only thing keeping her from jumping down to the water, running to The Disaster’s Mistress, and beating Jack senseless. That absolute bastard. She had died – literally died – in pursuit of this godsdamned mithral. She had almost lost her friends, they had put their lives on the line for this person and he just used them to fight a dragon turtle he had a quarrel with. She was going to kill him. Good luck to anyone who stood in her way.

“When we get back to that ship,” Ailith ground out, looking directly into Alice’s eyes, “Jack is mine.”

TFAL: I Hear You

Written July 16 11:25 PM

A ray of sun falling across her face woke Ailith, the sound of birdsong streaming in through the open window filling her with a sense of contentment. She stretched out on the bed, relishing in the way the warmth of the blankets contrasted with the cold air on her nose. A soft sigh on her neck drew her attention, her head turning towards the sensation.

A smile grew on Ailith’s face as she turned to see Feyra next to her, the redhead’s face pressed into Ailith’s shoulder in protest at having been woken up by her movements. Ailith wasn’t used to this, to the luxury of waking up with Feyra. She doubted she would ever grow tired of watching those eyes blink open and search for her in their first moments of awareness. It made Ailith’s heart do somersaults in her chest.

Now though, Feyra was burrowing her face into the crook of Ailith’s neck, hiding from the light. She grumbled something into Ailith’s skin, turning more fully into Ailith’s body and draping an arm over her chest.

Chuckling, Ailith nudged at the arm. “What was that? I don’t speak ‘sleep.'” She shifted slightly, bringing her hand up to run it down Feyra’s back, teasing the bare skin there.

A long suffering groan came from the cloud of red hair next to Ailith. “Nin uir,” came Feyra’s muffled voice, “it’s too early. Go back to sleep.”

Ailith froze, her hand coming to an abrupt stop between Feyra’s shoulder blades. The other woman sensed the tension in Ailith’s body and brought her head up to peer at her, brow furrowed in confusion.

“Ailith? What’s wrong?” Feyra’s hand was on Ailith’s face now, turning it towards her.

“You… You said the same thing in Dragontower, in bed.” Ailith was hesitant, sure that she was mistaken.

“I said a lot of things in Dragontower, in bed,” Feyra pointed out with a slight grin, “but… yes, I believe I did. Why?”

Ailith felt tears prick her eyes. She covered the hand still on her cheek with her own, squeezing gently. “I didn’t know what it meant. Obviously, I don’t speak Elvish.” Feyra nodded slowly, confusion written clearly on her face. “But I heard you this time. I understood you.”

“What? You’re sure?”

“‘My eternity.’ You called me your eternity,” Ailith whispered, fully aware that she was crying in bed for the second time in as many days.

Feyra was silent for a moment, a myriad of emotions playing out on her face. “Nin mel,” she murmured, moving to kiss Ailith softly, so softly. My love. Ailith gasped as the words filtered into her ears in Feyra’s Elvish lilt, her mind supplying the meaning behind them automatically.

They lost the rest of the morning, Feyra speaking words into Ailith’s mouth, her skin, her soul. Ailith answered the only way she knew how, until Feyra didn’t have any words left to utter.

TFAL: Coming Together

Written April 30th 2021 11:42 PM

They were alone and Ailith didn’t know how to proceed. She had never really done this before; clumsy fumbling with the stable girl next door didn’t count, not really. Not compared to this. She knew she wanted this, with Feyra, right now, more than she had ever wanted anything in her entire life. If she was being honest, it scared her a bit, the enormity of her feelings.

The First and Last had just returned to Dragontower after defeating Mammon and Ailith had immediately dragged Feyra upstairs to their room, not pausing to say anything to the rest of their party, want and need fuelling her actions. Now that they were actually here though, Ailith sat on her bed, hands twisting together in her lap as she watched Feyra set her bow down and start undoing the straps of her quiver. It felt like a swarm of bees had taken up residence in Ailith’s stomach, every nerve in her body buzzing.

Grime and mud still streaked across Feyra’s skin from their time in the Nine Hells and Ailith was sure she didn’t look much better. It didn’t matter though. In fact, it only served to conjure up images of sharing a bath, wiping Feyra’s skin clean gently, slowly… Ailith struggled to control her breathing. The air in the room felt heavy, like neither woman wanted to break the silence first. Fuck this, Ailith thought, the distance between her and Feyra suddenly far too great. Ailith stood and crossed the room before she could change her mind, coming to a stop in front of the other woman.

“Need a hand?” Ailith’s voice was low and she could feel her heart in her throat. She didn’t want to scare Feyra, to push her to do anything she didn’t want to do. She just wanted to be close to her in any way she could, in any way that Feyra would allow. She would take anything she was given.

“Okay,” came the whispered reply. Feyra brought her arms down to her sides, letting Ailith take over undoing her quiver. Ailith’s gloved fingers undid the buckles swiftly, leaning into Feyra’s space to slip the quiver off her back and set it gently on the floor. Feyra’s eyes never left Ailith’s face, and Ailith found herself unable to look away from them as her hands moved to undo the clasp of Feyra’s cloak, gloved fingertips brushing the delicate skin of her throat, before letting the cloak join the quiver on the floor.

She didn’t know what to do next, her mind crowded with thoughts and desires, all bumping into each other and melding into the next. Ailith wanted to pull Feyra into a hug, kiss her gently then not gently at all, to drag her tongue down her tattoos. She wanted to take Feyra apart and put her back together again, she wanted Feyra to open her up and write her name on her heart, gods, she wanted so many things she didn’t know where to begin.

Ailith was so wrapped up in her own thoughts she didn’t notice Feyra move, reaching out to her slowly. When Feyra grasped her hands, she jumped at the feeling, thoughts quieting for the moment. Ailith watched with bated breath as Feyra removed her gloves gently, one finger at a time. She waited, flexing her fingers at her sides as Feyra then removed her own gloves, tossing them onto the growing pile of discarded items.

Feyra moved to hold Ailith’s hands in hers and Ailith stopped breathing, waiting for the grimace of pain that always crossed Feyra’s face at the contact, no matter how much she tried to conceal it. When no grimace came, not even a flicker of pain in Feyra’s eyes, Ailith let out a shaky breath, eyes fluttering shut as Feyra entwined their fingers. Gods above. Such a simple gesture but hells if it didn’t make her want to weep. Her eyes snapped open at the feeling of Feyra running her hands up Ailith’s arms, tracing the vines and webs that covered the skin there.

Ailith never took her eyes off Feyra’s face, watching the miniscule changes in her expression. Ailith’s idle hands found their way to Feyra’s waist, bunching the fabric of her shirt at the sensation of callused fingers running up her neck.

“Feyra.” The word came out like a warning, low and hoarse. Or maybe it was a promise, an oath. Feyra looked at her then, a challenge in her eyes. Ailith’s tongue darted out to lick her lips and she watched as Feyra’s eyes followed the movement.

“Ailith.” A cocked eyebrow, a hint of a grin, and Ailith didn’t know who moved first. It was a messy kiss, with dry lips and too many teeth, but Ailith didn’t care. It had been months since she had been able to do this, all she cared about was finally getting to kiss her girl.

She couldn’t help the moan she gave when Feyra’s tongue ran along the seam of her lips. Her hands didn’t know where to rest, pulling and clutching Feyra closer at the sensation of the redhead’s tongue against hers. When Feyra sank her teeth into Ailith’s bottom lip, all thought flew from her mind. She walked Feyra backwards until she hit the wall with a small thud, lips never leaving hers, Ailith’s hand cradling the back of Feyra’s head to take the impact. Ailith slotted a leg in between Feyra’s, swallowing the gasp that accompanied the contact.

Ailith’s hands flew now, undoing the buttons on Feyra’s shirt with trademark speed. Feyra broke the kiss, panting as she shoved Ailith’s suspenders down her shoulders and untucked Ailith’s shirt from her pants. Feyra’s shirt now open, Ailith pushed it off her shoulders and down her arms, pausing only to press open mouthed kisses to Feyra’s tattoos. Those fucking tattoos.

Feyra gave Ailith an impatient shove, pushing her away only to yank Ailith’s shirt over her head. Both women now stood in only their bindings and trousers, breathing heavily. Ailith traced the skin above Feyra’s bindings with her index finger, watching as goosebumps followed her finger’s path. Feyra was running her hands up Ailith’s sides, tracing the web design inked into her skin.

“Bed?” Ailith breathed out, muscles tight in anticipation. Feyra nodded, then squealed as Ailith bent and grabbed the back of her thighs, picking Feyra up in one swift motion. Feyra bounced when Ailith dropped her on the bed, a sight that Ailith found endlessly endearing, but she didn’t join her. Instead, Ailith swallowed nervously as she undid her trousers and slipped them off, kicking them aside. She kept her underclothes on, eyes flickering up anxiously to where Feyra lay on the bed, watching Ailith’s every movement.

Wide eyed, the redhead followed suit, back arching as she worked her trousers off and dropped them off the side of the bed. Acting before she lost her nerve, Ailith removed her bindings, leaving her torso bare. Feyra’s eyes roved over Ailith’s body, pupils blown large. It was seldom that Ailith felt self-concious about her body; she knew she was strong, that this body was capable of truly superhuman feats, but with that came damage.

Scars riddled her upper body, some in the shape of claws, others teeth. There was a huge bruise forming on her ribs from where Mammon’s tail had whipped into her. She knew she wasn’t pretty, not like some girls with their soft skin and delicate features. She was rough, too coarse for most people. It hadn’t ever really bothered her until this moment, here alone with Feyra. Feyra, who was the most beautiful person she had ever laid eyes on, who she desperately wanted to be deserving of. In this moment, Ailith felt more self-conscious and more vulnerable than she had in her entire life. She moved, bending down towards Feyra, trying to ignore just how exposed she felt, but before she could spiral completely, Feyra surged up to meet her, dragging her down onto the bed.

Ailith braced herself on all fours above Feyra, whose legs were trapped by Ailith’s thighs. She ducked down to mouth along Feyra’s jaw, down her neck, into the dip below her throat. The noises Feyra was making bounced around in Ailith’s head, clearing any other thoughts away. When Ailith moved to remove Feyra’s bindings, she felt fingers tangling in her hair, pulling gently.

Ailith’s lips followed her fingers’ path as she removed the wraps on Feyra’s chest, chasing the flush that was working its way down Feyra’s body. When she moved to take Feyra in her mouth, the hands in her hair turned rough, insistent. Ailith caught snippets of murmurs; her name and something that sounded like “I love you.” Ailith couldn’t keep her hands still, moving them down Feyra’s body, caressing the softness she found on the way.

Feyra’s body, she realized, was much like hers. She too, had scars – some fresh and pink, others white and shiny with age. There was a tiny pinprick on her neck from where Yenobi had shot her with a dart back in Caltown, a jagged line running up her stomach where the demonic Minotaur had gored her. Ailith bent to each scar, each mark, and pressed her lips to them, sending up a thanks to whoever was listening for these reminders that Feyra was still here with her.

Feyra’s hands were still in her hair, grasping to the point of pain, but it only stoked the heat rising in Ailith’s body. She reached up and took Feyra’s left hand in hers, bringing her forearm into view. There were no scars there. Nothing to remind Ailith of what she almost lost before she ever really had it, but she kissed the skin there anyway, revelling in the smoothness of it on her lips, then under her tongue when she dared to taste it.

Feyra gasped and moaned, writhing under her, her hips bucking up into Ailith’s and gods, it was enough to drive a person mental. Raising her head, Ailith searched Feyra’s face. The other woman was flushed, beads of sweat erupting on her skin. Suddenly, Ailith wanted nothing more than to taste the sweat gathering in the hollow of Feyra’s throat. So she did. When she looked back up, Feyra’s eyes were dark, hair fanned out beneath her, her lips red and kiss swollen. Her chest was heaving, and she looked absolutely, almost obscenely, breathtaking.

“Feyra,” Ailith rasped, “is this… Do you want this?” She needed to hear Feyra say it, needed to know Feyra wanted this, wanted her. Feyra nodded, smoothing a few pieces of errant hair out of Ailith’s face. “I need you to use your words, love,” Ailith murmured in Feyra’s ear.

“Ailith, if you don’t shut up and finish what you started, I will kill you. Slowly,” Feyra ground out, breathless and impatient.

Ailith pulled back, eyes wide, a grin growing on her face. “Well alright then.” She wasted no time in tracing her hands down Feyra’s chest, over her torso, brushing her hip bones, before slowly pulling her underclothes down her legs. She felt Feyra’s hands on her shoulders and the next thing she knew, she was lying on her back, Feyra bare above her. I’m gonna need her to teach me that trick.

It was Ailith’s turn to squirm. Feyra was relentless, her mouth trailing heat down Ailith’s body. She nipped at Ailith’s skin, soothing the brief pain with her tongue. I’m going to die. This woman is going to kill me. When Feyra got to Ailith’s remaining coverings, she took the fabric in her teeth and Ailith’s eyes rolled back in her head. She lifted her hips and let Feyra remove the last barrier between them.

Feyra stilled for a moment, bringing her head up and sitting back on her heels. She knelt there, in between Ailith’s legs, not touching her, just looking. Ailith felt panic rising within her, a cold sensation running through her veins. This is it, she thought. This is where she decides I’m too broken, too battered for her. Green eyes ran up her body, tracing every scar, every bruise, every imperfection, until they found Ailith’s gaze. It was too intense; Ailith wanted to turn away, hide from it. But she didn’t – she couldn’t.

Feyra’s lips moved, but Ailith couldn’t hear anything past the rushing of blood in her ears. She shook her head slightly, watching Feyra’s brow furrow above her. Feyra shifted, bending down so that her hair created a curtain around Ailith’s face.

“You are,” she whispered, pausing to press a quick kiss to Ailith’s jaw, “so beautiful.” Another kiss, this time on Ailith’s lips. Ailith whimpered (which she would deny if anyone asked). Feyra murmured another phrase in a language Ailith didn’t know, but it was said so softly, with such reverence, that she knew what it meant. She wanted to cry, wanted to shout from every rooftop that she loved this woman with every fibre of her being.

“Gods, I love you. I – you have no idea how long I’ve waited for you. I was waiting for you before I even knew what I was waiting for. Feyra-” Ailith was babbling, words and endearments falling incoherently from her mouth. Feyra laughed softly – gods, Ailith loved that sound – catching the words on her tongue, pressing herself to Ailith as she did.

Everything else passed in a blur, only snippets standing out clearly in Ailith’s mind. Wet heat on her fingers. Gasping breaths in her ear. Sharp teeth on her collarbone. Shaking muscles wrapped tightly around her. Tears of finally on her cheeks.

After, they laid side by side in the dying sunlight, Feyra’s head tucked into Ailith’s shoulder. Ailith played with Feyra’s hair, feeling the other woman’s heart slow, her muscles relax into sleep. The setting sun turned Feyra’s hair to firelight in her hand, but Ailith didn’t burn.

TFAL: A Deal’s a Deal

Written July 3rd, 2021 5:07 PM

Feyra was speaking, but for once Ailith wasn’t listening. She was stuck in her head, replaying Mammon’s deal over and over. 106 souls for the price of Feyra’s. 100 people felled in battle, five of noble standing, and a Chosen – all killed in Mammon’s name. The vote had been fairly unanimous – Ace and Feyra refused to take the deal, so Talus and Xiv agreed. But Ailith had stayed silent. She knew, had she been given the choice herself, she would have considered it. 106 souls for the opportunity to save Feyra’s soul… it was an easy choice to make.

She had kept quiet throughout the futile negotiations and all the way back to Bael’s quarters, her inner monologue screaming. Ace and Feyra had been so quick, so adamant. What did it say about her that she considered it, was still considering it? Back in Morkala, when the walls fell, she wasn’t against casualties – sometimes that’s the way the world works – but again, Feyra and Ace had made it clear that casualties were to be avoided at all costs. Ailith already knew she wasn’t good enough for someone like Feyra, that she was lucky to have a chance with her at all, and that was made abundantly clear in situations like this.

Ailith wasn’t a good person, not really, not when she thought about it. Her and Xiv, dragging the goodness of the party down together. At least Xiv was comfortable in their not-entirely-good-ness. Ailith just hoped that keeping her mouth shut and her thoughts to herself would trick the rest of the party into thinking she was a decent person. That maybe, if she did that long enough, she would one day become the type of person who was worthy of a woman like Feyra. Just maybe.

“I’m not going to force anyone to fight this battle for me, but I’m doing this,” Feyra’s voice filtered back into Ailith’s ears, and she shook herself out of her own thoughts. She stared at Feyra while her brain caught up to what was happening in front of her.

“Of course we’re going with you, Feyra,” came Ace’s soft voice. Oh, thought Ailith. Feyra is giving us a choice to not fight Mamon with her. What an absolutely lovely idiot.

Ailith felt an anger grow within her, not at Feyra, but at the fact that she felt she had to ask, that she didn’t just know that Ailith would be behind her one hundred percent. Ailith made a mental note to find ways to make sure that Feyra understood that there was nothing Ailith wouldn’t do for her. Feyra’s eyes were on her, waiting for a response, so very green against the backdrop of gold and red.

“There was never any doubt,” Ailith said forcefully, “that I would be behind you on this. I am with you, whatever it takes.” Ailith took Feyra’s hand and squeezed it, trying to convey all the feelings raging inside her with the simple action.

Bael stood, closing the conversation. “That settles it then. We move against Mammon now, while he’s not expecting it. Do this, and know you will have an ally in me when we succeed.”

Ailith felt a shift in the air as the First and Last steeled themselves, preparing for what was about to come. Ailith kept a hold on Feyra as they walked down the hall towards Mamon’s throne room, thumb brushing over the other woman’s knuckles. As they paused at the door, Ailith turned Feyra towards her, gripping her shoulders.

“Whatever happens in there,” she began, voice soft and low, “it is all worth it to fix this.” Ailith knew Feyra, knew that she was probably already feeling guilty about dragging the rest of them into this, that she was thinking she wasn’t worth the risk. But as far as Ailith was concerned, that was bullshit. Feyra was always worth the risk. A small smile lifted the corners of Feyra’s mouth, the air between them growing thick with emotion.

“That was a really bad pep talk,” Xiv rasped, poking their skull between the two of them. “Nothing is going to happen, everything is going to be just fine,” they finished with a thumbs up, confidence ringing in their voice.

They both ignored the intrusion, lost in their little moment. Feyra nodded, and Ailith only hoped she actually believed her.

“I love you.” Feyra’s response was quiet, but said with such conviction that Ailith felt her knees go weak. Ailith squeezed Feyra’s arms three times, an unsaid reply. One that she was once again starting to let herself imagine whispered against skin, no barriers in the way. Let’s go get this bastard, she thought to herself as they all squared up to the door, waiting with bated breath as Bael pushed it open.